..\ 2025-01-15 i'm just guna say this to the void because i have weak self confidence. I don't need to listen to your opinion as if it is an attack to my fealings. Its your opinion. I don't need to apologize for making you upset. I don't need to back down from my feeling, it was what i felt, fuck me, fuck you 2025-01-15 pansyphicism thats what its called where all matter contains some part of a universal consiusness https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panpsychism where consusness is somthing that arises from matter Then there's Experientialism where matter arises from consieusness? thats strange ooo then there's the idea that our brains are not the source of consiousness but a filter in which a human perspective arises its a funel that condeses a universal consiousness into a body its theory inacidemia is non-local consiousness https://youtu.be/As_SiWqC5tc?si=WJyu7kwcw0P5vvh5&t=336 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNJv-Ebi67I you know what its is, the brain is anentena, with a narrow bandwidth 2025-01-15 by looking for meaning in randomness, you reflect upon new ideas. Extrapolate new ways of asking question, new ways of finding answers. You may find insights that surprise you. The question we ask changes what the answer will be. Mix up the question, a truer tapastery of answers becomes more clear. 2025-01-15 Indigo (Part One) - Metaphysical Prisoners of the Desktop Ted Nelson in Herzog's "Lo and Behold" 2025-01-13 i was trying to think of a device that could resive a internet signal from a radio tower or satelite, for some reson my brain fist thought of the sound 'fo..'. Then the idea of the object. 2025-01-13 i've been doing alot of fantisization about living in a small town, especially redfeather, where there are only a handfull of places to work. It's simple, you just apply to every spot and see what you can get goin'. They're all local small places as well. Here there are so many large corparations, so many buisnesses, i feel stressed and overwhelmed. I don;t know how i'm going to survive. i want to go hiking. my body feels weak. my body feals sad. i want to find somthing that i actualy want to eat. probebly not eating enough. there's a audio desgin place at the university in greley. i want tro go see what people are over there. don't know how to help me comunity. could go help at the comunity kitchen. this is exsusting. 2025-01-08 Dying on The Internet "we are told you don't have time to be creative" "there is no reality that can exsist on the internet" "ecletic sensations" archived logs -> 2024 -> 2023 dreams